"You can't, in most things, get what you want
if you want it too desperately:
anyway you can't get the best out of it...
'Now! Let's have a real good talk' reduces everyone to silence...
And so, perhaps, with God.
I have gradually been coming to feel
that the door is no longer shut and bolted.
Was it my own frantic need that slammed it in my face?
The time when there is nothing at all in your soul
except a cry for help
may be just the time when God can't give it:
you are like the drowning man who can't be helped
because he clutches and grabs.
Perhaps your own reiterated cries
deafen you to the voice you hoped to hear."
- C. S. Lewis
(A Grief Observed)